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instead of explaining what I did today (which is all-too much and all-too boring) I'd like to appologize for my lack of inspiration/motivation of creation lately. I almost feel like I shouldn't even post anything somedays (and some I just foget aka 3 times this week) but I also know that I still should. It's not quite that I've given up, actually far from it, it's more that I have been exhausted in not giving up. From school, to work, to errands, to homework, and back to school, there is hardly a minute in my day for breathing. I haven't ran/trained for three days now (at least I am forced to bike to work so I get some exercise, but clearly not enough) I guess these days are just flying by so quickly and I haven't mnaged to catch up. I really hope to get back on track soon and get some more interesting parts of life back on to my post (and into my life).

For some better news, I have really enjoyed my classes this semester. As much as they are a pain in the ass. English averaging 200pgs a week, 10 h math homework, and a never ending project in PhotoJournalism. Not to mention 30h/week I spend serving coffee and Sandwiches at River Cafe, and the rest of my hours paying bills (and being my families personal mailman). I really obviously do NOT have any time for myself.
Back to enjoying my lovely classes I really feel like a brainy to really enjoy math. And for me, reading Plato is a treat (even if I have to re-read every other sentence)
I actually write about it in journal entries on my "free time" 

But enjoying school if not really changing the fact that I am burnt out. I haven't had a real break in almost, well, since last winter skiing in Heavenly with Lovely Loren.

 (this is not counting the day trips Loren and I spent to visit his family and rushing home to get to work)

I really feel like I actually NEED some time out in the nature. Like this girl here who gets out at least every two weeks. I need that. I feel so stuck in this craziness and it's bringing me down.
I'm hoping to start out my 20's with some epic adventures, laughter, and a few races in some new running shoes!
I can care less about making money or going to school I also want to be responsible and mature and stick to my plans.

Here's some work I've been starting for SOS (more on the project later)

Thank you so much for reading my rant and I hope it didn't bring you down. I'm just trying to be honest to you and to myself. I really need some more adventure in my life, and I believe it will be happening soon!

what sorts of things are you doing for fun these days?
do you have any ideas for an epic 1 day adventure?

training: zip, zilch, n-o-n-e, nada. 0

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no training
no crafting
just work
just homework

little sleep, little fun.

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no time for anything!
I greatly apologize for missing yesterdays po
st. second time this year, and this week...
Shows you how stressed I am.

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Training:
3 mi in 28 min =] not too shabby
strengthen for 1 hour
stretch for 30 min

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had my first math exam today, and I really think I passed it. Like with an A... not keeping my hopes up, but I'm definitely not going to keep my hopes up.

Training:
2mi in 26 min

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training
3.5 mi in 26 min! new PR!
"scenic" rout Portolla-capitola rd
hilly hot and sweaty

I had no motivation this morning, but I couldn't sleep past 9.
my morning was slow and lonely so I decided to get out for a run at 10:30
and I was fast. first I should say that I am instinctively competative, thats kind of why I like running alone, so I get to my own pace. I even find myself trying to race bikes, cars, and worse yet are old lady runners wit a million marathons under their belt. Man, it's almost disgarceful that I'm so much more out of shap. but then again it's pretty inspiring.
So today, when I got out, I was trailing a garbage truck. and at every can he'd swerve into my lane, stop, and pick it up...bla bla bla basically I had to pass him. But I also had to keep a good speed so he wouldn't catch up, and boy did it feel like I was running for once, instead a pathetic jog. and at the end of the run, I cought up with another jogger and managed to run up the hill and pass her and keep my speed. I felt like a new runner! this is a really big step for me as a runner and I am very proud =]
I think I can get to 8/mi by may...or atleast I really hope so!
new goal!

How was your tuesday?

oh, and here is me and my homework...

I have exam1 in math tomorrow which means flashcards, notes, and skittles! (yes, my brain need sugar lol)
oh, and I also have 100 pgs in Plato to read =]

good night

btw: another point for Loren
Me: do you want to do math together?
Him: no, I just need a break; a lazy day. A day that I can just sit around and do nothing so I wont break down and cry.

Amen!

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Sorry, I forgot to post last night.
I had been at school all day and I was pretty worn out by the time I got home.

I haven't crafted in almost two weeks now and it's starting to bog me down.
Hopefully soon I will get the courage to do something, anything!

Training:
rest day
biked to school (freezing! bad choice to wear a dress)