336th-craft

337th-work out

Why I work out... a new realization.
As I clung on to the boulder at 4:35 today I had a huge realization of why I love (and also hate) working out. I just got off a long work day at the cafe and was already strung out. Still I mounted my bike and rode to the climbing gym. I knew I needed it and part of me wanted it, but I "didn't feel like it". I wasn't even sure if I was going to climb, run, lift weights, or do push-ups, all I knew is I was going to put all my efforts and mind to what I was going to do no matter what. A few days ago I was browsing a runners blog and something I read surprised me. She said that "even though i love running, I only really love it 50% of the time, but it always puts me in a better mood afterward." It surprised me because, well, I feel exactly the same way! Somehow, in the end of every workout, I feel like a completely different person. My mind is clearer, my body feels stronger, and I'm just a whole lot livelier. Weather I'm skiing on the mountain or surfing in the ocean it is my purpose in life to be active.
I've come to realize that I stop thinking about my insecurities or stress about work. I don't have time to sit and dwell about all my problems while I'm working out and in the end I feel truly invincible.
Now, this does bring another minute problem into the picture. The days I don't work out, I slowly slip into boredom and slight depression. I feel like I have no purpose so I end up doing nothing. This make my mood go up and down severely and it actually raises stress which impairs my health.

What I really need is a workout routine that will best fit in with works and school. Part of having this "me time" is being able to enjoy it with a clear mind. I can't stand not being active, and even though I can't go climbing in yosemite  every day (though I wish I could) I need to start taking more care on my body's needs and stay true to myself.

What do you do to stay active? is there any trick you have to getting a routine and sticking to it?

Thank you for listening!

338th-organization

Every time relaxation pops into my life, I freeze up. I don't know what to do. Should I sit down, stand up, take a nap, watch a movie? Never does it cross my mind that maybe I could read a book, or write in a journal, or actually take that nap. What usually ends up happening is I stare at my computer screen for hours on end doing absolutely nothing. To me, doing nothing NEVER feels just right. After the hours I spent doing "nothing" are gone, I realized I literally wasted my time; Time that could have been useful. The funny part of this realization is half of my life I spend wanting to do something and the other I spend wishing I could do "nothing". The point is, I don't think I have found the "balance between the two. If I weren't so eager to be doing something constantly to the point of pushing my limits then I would want to spend the rest of my time doing nothing to "rebound". Brain over load , over exertion, or a pile of errands all cause me to explode and the moment I finally have to "myself" I just sit and stare at the wall wishing I could move a finger.
I guess it all comes down to procrastination. If you haven't noticed yet, It's rare that I ever get to posting until around 11:00 at night, about the time where I should already be sound asleep. Yes you could say that it because of my busy works schedule, and part of that's is true. But a lot of it has to do with just waiting till the last minute. Being lazy really. You see, even though I've been consistent with posting daily, and that of I'm proud of, I haven't yet solved my "problem" with procrastination. And nearing the start of school, this is really beggining to worry me. How am I going to tackle work, school, this bog, and still have the down time that I need to be sane?

So, I do need a bit of a change. Perhaps it's been the vacation that's put me in this lazy mode, or maybe it's my lifestyle, either way I need to shape up; and shape up quick.
So, in the next few day, I'll be eliminating the things from my life that are stopping me from getting things done. Now, you all know how I love (and need) the little things in life so don't think I'll stop watching movies, sun tanning, or taking naps all together, but I'll definitely be trimming the time I spend doing those things.

Wish me luck!

How do you organize your life? by day? by week? do you write down things, or just memorize them?

also, what really keeps you motivated.

339th-photo

I'm sorry for the gruesomeness (and the blurry picture) but this is what I was faced with yesterday at the hospital:

I didn't have much time from all the running around to really give you any input on my day yesterday, but believe me it was weird.
Today went a little smoother. The only bummer was waking up past noon. I always feel super groggy just from those hours of sleeping in, but boy did I need 'em. After that, while my oatmeal was cooking, I tried the instant coffee trial and boy did I make a mistake. Now, the mistake wasn't the instant coffee which you may have thought, but is how I put it together. I guess there's a big trick to making instant coffee, but whatever I did today was upsidedown and backwards. how complicated can it be? a spoon of this a spoon of that hot water and vois la! The bummer is, I didn't get a nice kickstart to this day because of that but lucky me I work at a coffee so nearing 2 I got my cup of coffee.
I biked to the gym afterwork only to find out it was CROWDED and so I had to X my run and X the boulder, so the only place left was the back where I worked out for a bit just after riding home.

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Loren got ran over by another surfer today.

341st-photo

My day in pictures: (well most of it, like the pretty parts)

342nd-sew

Today I did a lot on my sewing project and boy amy I glad I didn't try making a tutorial. Unless I wanted to show 100 ways to mess up. I seriously could not stop making mistakes on the "simple" romper. But I assure that it doesn't stop here. I will try until I succeed and then perhaps even make a tutorail. I know one thing for sure, that to know something right, you must also know it wrong. (I just finished a samurai movie, had to add some wisdom speech.)

So, for todays work this is where I'm at:

I love love love the look of it, but only one problem: It doesn't fit. It's become one of those projects wher you alter a little here a little there and still getting nowhere. My butt is far too large and no matter how much I try to make it fit, It keeps getting more awkward and less fun. (I even added lace to the side so it would stretch more, and it still wont fit) It's quite frustrating.
So, what should I do? start over? or is it possible to make this work?

BTW: this is some nice memory fabric for those who know me. It's sort of funny seeing my shirts all cut up and altered.

good night.