Every time relaxation pops into my life, I freeze up. I don't know what to do. Should I sit down, stand up, take a nap, watch a movie? Never does it cross my mind that maybe I could read a book, or write in a journal, or actually take that nap. What usually ends up happening is I stare at my computer screen for hours on end doing absolutely nothing. To me, doing nothing NEVER feels just right. After the hours I spent doing "nothing" are gone, I realized I literally wasted my time; Time that could have been useful. The funny part of this realization is half of my life I spend wanting to do something and the other I spend wishing I could do "nothing". The point is, I don't think I have found the "balance between the two. If I weren't so eager to be doing something constantly to the point of pushing my limits then I would want to spend the rest of my time doing nothing to "rebound". Brain over load , over exertion, or a pile of errands all cause me to explode and the moment I finally have to "myself" I just sit and stare at the wall wishing I could move a finger.
I guess it all comes down to procrastination. If you haven't noticed yet, It's rare that I ever get to posting until around 11:00 at night, about the time where I should already be sound asleep. Yes you could say that it because of my busy works schedule, and part of that's is true. But a lot of it has to do with just waiting till the last minute. Being lazy really. You see, even though I've been consistent with posting daily, and that of I'm proud of, I haven't yet solved my "problem" with procrastination. And nearing the start of school, this is really beggining to worry me. How am I going to tackle work, school, this bog, and still have the down time that I need to be sane?
So, I do need a bit of a change. Perhaps it's been the vacation that's put me in this lazy mode, or maybe it's my lifestyle, either way I need to shape up; and shape up quick.
So, in the next few day, I'll be eliminating the things from my life that are stopping me from getting things done. Now, you all know how I love (and need) the little things in life so don't think I'll stop watching movies, sun tanning, or taking naps all together, but I'll definitely be trimming the time I spend doing those things.
Wish me luck!
How do you organize your life? by day? by week? do you write down things, or just memorize them?
also, what really keeps you motivated.